Happy New year

Wow! Can you beleive it is 2011 already? I have to admit I am very happy that it is a new year. I have to admit I am not much for the idea that the one year is over so leave what you were behind and then forge ahead as a new person. I beleive your still that same.

This past year brought Noah to us which was amazing. he is such a cute and well behaved baby. He is still nursing and just received his first tooth. he enjoyed Christmas alot. His favorite thing was to eat the wrapping paper. He is now crawling but struggles to sit more than a few seconds. He is finally sleeping for more than two hours at a time which I am very pleased about.

Lillie has accomplished so much at school. She did great in her musical and has been doing very well in math. She enjoys girlscouts (the cookie sale is right around the corner so save up a few dollars) and starts basketball this week!

Dave and I struggled alot this year..more than I could have ever imagined. I am not sure right now what the year year will bring to us and our marriage. Right now it is so deconstructed that I assume it can only get better if given the opportunity. one moment I feel I can move forward and just focus on us now. With Gods help i suppose we could flurish and come out ahead. Our children would benefit most from this type of dedication and strenth. On other days I am unable to move past the hurt and betrayal. I have had to burry the husband and the marriage I thought I had. I now am living with what seems to be a starnger. Some of the old husband I was not that fond of anyway so giving him up is easy but I had no idea he was capable of having three affairs. He wants to work on things though and feels now that he has God he can be the man I always deserved and needed. Its difficult to trust that however and I fear for what could happen if I allow him that opportunity. God says we are not to have fear rather faith in him. If I can do that no matter the outcome I would be ok and bathed in his assurance. I am not sure if I am far enough along n my faith to do that. I will commit each morning to do so and hope to end each evening having succeeded.

I hope all of you had a very Merry Christmas and I wish you a wonderful new year. people say happy new year but happy is juts a fleeting feeling. It comes and goes like the wind. i wish you a joyous new year because once you have joy in your heart from Christ it will remain forever and be unchanged!